Got you wrapped around my finger, babe. You can count on me to misbehave.

For my best friend, Georgia x
 
^ That quote really suits us by the way hahaha ^
 
I miss you so much, its hard not seeing you everyday at school or even on weekends. If only I could fold Australia and then we would be right next to each other!
*Starts singing 'if these sheets were the states'*
Oh well, i'll just have to kidnap you on the holidays c:
 
I don't even know whats making me do this now of all times, but who cares right? I just wanted to tell you all this.
 
Your seriously the greatest person I know and will probably ever know. (Don't forget that by the way, its a major asset in this weird letter of mine.)
With all the crazy jokes that only we understand and the strange looks, our craziness can't be compared to anyone else's! I feel like sometimes your the only person who actually gets me, (yay for you).
You'll always be able to make me smile, even if we're not in the same room and you say some stupid ass comment about something i'll laugh hysterically. Its a good quality by the way, could put that on a resumé or something.. If your auditioning to become a clown, or a comedian or something I don't know i'll shut up now.
 
I don't even know what i'm writing or what I should, but i'll just finish off with saying that you really are the best friend ever George, love you my lesbian lover c;
 
xx
 
P.S HAS HE REPLIED YET? ;)

Urgh, why does he have to bloody do this to me!
I can't handle all the tension between us anymore, its becoming too much.
I can't keep my head straight, he's all I can think about and its slowly driving me away into madness.
Being across the other side of the country doesn't help either mind you..

Urgh, that bloody smug smile of his.

Marina and the Diamonds // How to be a Heartbreaker
 
I hate this..
I miss everyone on the Goldcoast and it sucks because I have no-one here except family. The family that just nods and says 'you'll be fine' when I am far from it.
 
@lumos-my-life
I miss you too much :c
 
P.S Listening to Lana Del Rae and singing "My pussie tastes like pepsi cola" while everyone looks at me weird..

Shut up. If you don't appreciate what you have, just shut up. Please.
Cause it hurts.

Homecoming // Green Day
 
Might go into the city this weekend with a girl named Jewel i've been talking to lately.
She seems really nice, talk to her a lot, today we had a conversation about anime which was, interesting haha :3

Fake it // Tonight Alive
 
Screw religion homework.
Rather be procrastinating anyways..
 
Actually, i'm thinking of dip dying my hair red.
Any thoughts?

As you can tell from the quote, i'm still reading 'The Perks of Being a Wallflower', its really just an amazing book.
 
School at the moment is just depressing, and I miss my friends.
(And Chemistry.. Urgh. Please, make yourself comfortable while I go hang myself in the back of the classroom.)
 
I have doubt that my mother even cares for me, I'm not sure when this may have started, and this is one of the most depressing things I can tell myself. As I guess she's used me all these years. Just a meal ticket.
My dad, even with his lectures and what seems to be impossible advice, is trying to help. Though he'll never understand how i'm feeling at the moment.
He actually bought me a teapot and some special tea to try and help with the stress. Which, even though it tastes horrible, I'll drink it because I know he's just worried. And I appreciate it in a strange way I guess.

Nirvana//Teen Spirit
 
So I told my dad how i've been feeling sh.t lately, and strangely enough he doesn't push on it. He's good, understanding at least, which I know I can't find in a lot of my family.
Its all, "you'll be fine". I'm sick of that phrase now. I mean, seriously?
The one highlight yesterday was talking to my friends, who even though they probably don't know it, they always manage to cheer me up somehow.
And yes, him too. I surprised he wants to go on, but he's still as funny and sweet as ever.
 
Anyway, I was suppose to start school today, but after talking to my mother on the phone yesterday, it just made me feel worse.
I'm starting monday now, wish me luck?
x

The pretty Reckless//Make Me Wanna Die
 
Love this song, its all i've been listening to lately.
So I havn't been on in a while with everything thats been going on.. Hopefully it will all be sorted out next week, i'm just so sick of al the sh.t that keeps knocking me over when I turn a corner. Its not only depriving me of my sleep, health and thinking habits but everything.
I feel so guilty. Along with every other possible emotion you can think of that comes with guilt.
Anything that reminds me of the situation is absolutely terrifying, saddening and exhausting.
So I've decided to keep a dairy, no, not one with all the gossip and unnessicary stuff.. One that just gets everything out of my system.
Hope it helps..
 
Most of all, I think the thing thats bringing me down all the time is missing everyone.
Heaps.
It weird not seeing you guys everyday.